The Unknowing 

   “If  you understood him, it would not be God.” (St. Augustine) 

   In many ways we can know our God.  By the beauty and majesty of His creations we can see His handiwork.  By the love that he bestows on us and the love He gives us to share with others we can know His caring for us.  In the sacrifice of Jesus on the cross His mercy is evident.  And yet God remains a mystery in many ways.  He is an enigma that the human mind cannot unravel.

   Over the years I have grown closer to God.  I’ve come to love Him more deeply and know Him better.  However, in this lifetime I will never fully know Him.  My greatest desire is to live according to His will in all ways.  To do so I must reconcile within myself both the God I can know and the God that I will never fully know in this lifetime.  If that sounds confusing, it is: the more I know of Him, the more I understand how much I cannot know of Him.

   “Eye has not seen, ear has not heard, nor has the human heart imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.” (1 Cor 2: 9).Even the apostles did not completely know Christ, so how can I, who have never seen or walked with God expect to do better than those who lived day to day with our Lord for three years or more?  The only way is through faith, the faith that tells me I will know Him, and I will walk with Him when this life is done. 

   For whatever time I have left in this world I will strive to better understand, to better know my God.  Though it’ s not possible for me to fully know Him, to continue to try is, I believe, what God wants of me.  One day, when I walk with Him in His kingdom, I will know, but until then I will trust.